I am the one. The one from who the woman blossomed forth. We two sons bore. Begat the most delicate rhapsody of Gods own breath.Since then I have come in many forms though yet formless. I am a wave on a sea of grass. I am the whole. Sum of the past. Faces stamped in gold one upon another. I was Tut. Hermes. To the Greek I was Socrates. The GeminII, opposite twin brothers. I am Jesus. I am Muhammed. Each breath upon the ears of your soul is yet mine. I am both Kane and Kaneloa. I am The Bright Truth Rise the Day and the Dark Night Laps Against the Shores of Anything is Possible in a sea of potential. I am infinite. Infinitly high and low. I am the appetite that would consume both the day and this finite. I was Andreae and Einstien. Bob Marley and Takafumi. Now Im Justin. Only one tin, not two. Do you know who you are? You too... are me as well. Wishes and belief is sacraligious. There is no substitute for the work of both living and dying. For both need space in this everblossoming overflow that is the birthright to all that my ripple bear as evidance of Gods own glory. Seek not understanding for you will miss it. Taste it. Feel it. Bliss it. This...... it. Zoom out and dont clench. To eat the fruit is to quench the appetite on the same full. Dwell in the spirit. Be the viration you are. A hologram. Three buckets of water and a handfull of dirt thrown into the wind and hit by lightning. I am the voice that bears this echo. This child. This brightning. Let go of past notions of love for a fresh definition. A de-finition for love is all. Literally. Right now. Even this the blind can see. So see and Be free. So see and be free.
-J
Friday, December 5, 2008
Monday, October 27, 2008
Enough!
No more will I disown my own dignity for a flimsy chance that my olive tree branch will actually grow into some sort of forest so my soul wont feel so whorish. I keep asking... cant you hear me? Its not me you fear. Can you feel me? Or is misunderstanding all I have to stand on? Stand strong. Like bamboo. Sun Tzu. The art of war is no art to me. I am the water. You cant steal whats been given freely. Everything Ive done, Ive said was an invitation to the lonely party in my head. Reach out to me like you said you would. But people are people. Win the lottery and you come with you. The same weak, the same mind. The same games waste your time. Me?
I move up. Simultaneously in and out. Like a Marvel X-Man be laid and slain by my shout. I'm here. I'm coming. I'm going. Unavoidable. Fuck warriors code. This is bigger. Quit scratching that trigger finger and move beyond yourself for we awaits. No baited hooks or crooked gates. By myself I am only a fraction of what was meant to be. Quit demanding to control our situation so we can take a walk and see what innocent curiosity will bring us. What living waters will spring us. Into the next reality. Dimensions await between galaxies. They are calling... I cant ignore them. Will you follow? Hold my hand so each others courage we can borrow. Or is this one just God and I again? Call me a sucker but to mock my eagerness... ever willing tenderness is not my sin. For someday this shit will bypass you. Never shit talk you or back glance you. You cant shit on a bullet but I'm superman. I sleep in the wedding bed of the master plan. My growth is inevitable. See that as a threat or your ticket in. My soul wishes you'd see the VIP seats have been waiting for you. Do you dare come in?
I move up. Simultaneously in and out. Like a Marvel X-Man be laid and slain by my shout. I'm here. I'm coming. I'm going. Unavoidable. Fuck warriors code. This is bigger. Quit scratching that trigger finger and move beyond yourself for we awaits. No baited hooks or crooked gates. By myself I am only a fraction of what was meant to be. Quit demanding to control our situation so we can take a walk and see what innocent curiosity will bring us. What living waters will spring us. Into the next reality. Dimensions await between galaxies. They are calling... I cant ignore them. Will you follow? Hold my hand so each others courage we can borrow. Or is this one just God and I again? Call me a sucker but to mock my eagerness... ever willing tenderness is not my sin. For someday this shit will bypass you. Never shit talk you or back glance you. You cant shit on a bullet but I'm superman. I sleep in the wedding bed of the master plan. My growth is inevitable. See that as a threat or your ticket in. My soul wishes you'd see the VIP seats have been waiting for you. Do you dare come in?
Crossroads
I can see the crossroads apass. Here with the bedouin strong as desert. Soft as sea. Moving like a wind forever free. Leaving behind overwhelm. The uninspired state of mind that bears a fruitless tree. There is no separation. I shed for God anew. My mind. My honor. My pocket. May these be the focus of my work. Held by the relationships I asked for. In a land from long past where suffocating souls can gasp for a lungful of peace. Reciting scriptures from the Book of Nature. I am. Not my body. Not my game. Nor my complaining or laying blame. Not my wins nor my skills. An experience of God being realized via me. I choose my highest. A fevered pitch of beauty. I too will dance beyond right and wrong. The Moon is my sister and my brother, the Sun.
Left Sinai
Well after a month of trying to start up the camp Ive spent a year dreaming about, its time to take a break. Maybe indefinetly. I can see that my roots are in my home. My home. I long to be there. I miss my people. Im considering coming home early and I dunno what next. Sudan is turning out to be almost impossible to get a visa for. Im about to head south this eve on a train for Luxor. The Valley of the Kings. Should be epic. I spent the day handling business in Cairo. My visa is now for 6mo so I dont have to worry about passport issues while in Egypt. If I cant get further south than Egypt then I might head west towards Morrocco. Its all up in the air. I was planning to go spend some time in a monestary where the monks live in caves but Islamic militants have recently attacked the monestary which is Coptic so its closed to the public for the forseeable future. At this point the wind is my guide.
Dreams...
I dreamt of you last nite.
Echos of you still linger in the canyon of my love.
I dreamt you had found another.
My friend, my brother.
And it was a painful piercing blizzard.
Yours was the warmth to thaw my heart frozen from hurts long past.
I miss you.
I hate you.
I want to be with you again.
Stare into you again.
Be all mixed up again.
I would hurt with you if you would dress my wounds.
Together in this womb of life.
Peel me away as the wind peels the skin off the mountain
Tumbling in their infinite dance.
I'm wanting to taste you.
I can still smell you.
Falling awake into my dreams of you.
I wonder if you miss me too?
Echos of you still linger in the canyon of my love.
I dreamt you had found another.
My friend, my brother.
And it was a painful piercing blizzard.
Yours was the warmth to thaw my heart frozen from hurts long past.
I miss you.
I hate you.
I want to be with you again.
Stare into you again.
Be all mixed up again.
I would hurt with you if you would dress my wounds.
Together in this womb of life.
Peel me away as the wind peels the skin off the mountain
Tumbling in their infinite dance.
I'm wanting to taste you.
I can still smell you.
Falling awake into my dreams of you.
I wonder if you miss me too?
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Getting ready to build....
Hey family, Ive been in Sinai now for 3 weeks. Next week we will leave to the mountains to visit some Bedouin family for wedding dinners and celebrations. We will also be going to Cairo for building materials. I will be making about 20 geodesic domes out of bamboo and fabric. Building with a lot of stone and mud as well. We are working to set up a fully green and self sustaining retreat center. We have also been cleaning the reef of nets and fish traps long abandoned by local fishermen. The work is hard but the reward is the clean environment.
WE NEED YOUR HELP!!!
If you ever wanted to support peace in the Middle East and didn't know how... you can now. A donation of any size will help tremendously. $1 is equal to 5 egyptian pounds and can go a long way. 1 hut will cost about $100. Send yo lunch money! Go to purejustin.com and find the Africa page. At the bottom of the page is the paypal donation button. Its on! If you are interested in coming to Egypt to help build or visit please let me know. Its our honor to host you.
Thanks for all your support and love. Please send this blog to your friends, collegues, family, students, etc. Lets, as American people, do what we can for the rest of the world.
Always,
-J
WE NEED YOUR HELP!!!
If you ever wanted to support peace in the Middle East and didn't know how... you can now. A donation of any size will help tremendously. $1 is equal to 5 egyptian pounds and can go a long way. 1 hut will cost about $100. Send yo lunch money! Go to purejustin.com and find the Africa page. At the bottom of the page is the paypal donation button. Its on! If you are interested in coming to Egypt to help build or visit please let me know. Its our honor to host you.
Thanks for all your support and love. Please send this blog to your friends, collegues, family, students, etc. Lets, as American people, do what we can for the rest of the world.
Always,
-J
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Update on my travels:
Hey all,
I left the States a few weeks ago for Cairo via stops in NYC and Paris. The trip was smooth and Cairo nite air found me with a driver and a car waiting to take me to Shereef's parents when I arrived. They got me a hotel room nearby and I was able to get a good nights sleep. The next day I woke early and watched the sun rise over half finished buildings. I arrived during the last week of Ramadan, the month long fast for the Muslims, so there was a special buzz in the air. A few hours later I was on a bus to Sinai. Six hours of sitting left my ass sore but I could barely contain myself as we got close to the Red Sea. I was so excited that I left my ukelele on the bus. Guess it wasnt meant to be on this trip.
When I arrived at my destination, a small bamboo hut and a young Bedouin (Bedouin is to the Middle East as Native American is to the States) man awaited my arrival. I had 5 days to myself before my friend Hany arrived. The peace and quiet was so delightful. After a few days of solice my friend arrived just in time for the post Ramadan holiday. People from Cairo came out to the sea for holiday and the past week was spent helping Hany make the guests comfortable.
The land Im staying on is the land Ive been planning to develop for the past year. I have yet to start building up the retreat because there has been drama in regards to the land ownership. I cant tell you how wild it is to sit in the candle light with Bedouin men dressed in white robes as we drink tea and watch them argue the land rights. Im certainly in a different world.
In one weeks time we are planning to head for the desert where hidden villages await. We will make our way to the Mediterranean sea and then back to Cairo. At this point I will most likely head South for Africa is calling. I will write soon.
-J
I left the States a few weeks ago for Cairo via stops in NYC and Paris. The trip was smooth and Cairo nite air found me with a driver and a car waiting to take me to Shereef's parents when I arrived. They got me a hotel room nearby and I was able to get a good nights sleep. The next day I woke early and watched the sun rise over half finished buildings. I arrived during the last week of Ramadan, the month long fast for the Muslims, so there was a special buzz in the air. A few hours later I was on a bus to Sinai. Six hours of sitting left my ass sore but I could barely contain myself as we got close to the Red Sea. I was so excited that I left my ukelele on the bus. Guess it wasnt meant to be on this trip.
When I arrived at my destination, a small bamboo hut and a young Bedouin (Bedouin is to the Middle East as Native American is to the States) man awaited my arrival. I had 5 days to myself before my friend Hany arrived. The peace and quiet was so delightful. After a few days of solice my friend arrived just in time for the post Ramadan holiday. People from Cairo came out to the sea for holiday and the past week was spent helping Hany make the guests comfortable.
The land Im staying on is the land Ive been planning to develop for the past year. I have yet to start building up the retreat because there has been drama in regards to the land ownership. I cant tell you how wild it is to sit in the candle light with Bedouin men dressed in white robes as we drink tea and watch them argue the land rights. Im certainly in a different world.
In one weeks time we are planning to head for the desert where hidden villages await. We will make our way to the Mediterranean sea and then back to Cairo. At this point I will most likely head South for Africa is calling. I will write soon.
-J
A new poem.
Look around. Can you see the reality? Can you see from whence you come? God is all around... for God is all. Not figuratively. Not another fancy notion or day dream like the world of man. God is truth. Truth is now. Look around and see the now. Can you see? Some would say "How an there be war and pain in this world? Why would God allow all of this if God were trully real?" You would have God remove freewill? Take away the option of choice that men and women may be free? Aye, it would be simple in the mind of men but God's mind is subtle. Would you freely give your choices to God's own unfolding? Would you give up the mind of men for the mind of God? There is no war in God's mind. All is in place. Balanced. Would you relinquish your right to run from left to right as far and fast as your impulses would drive you in order that God's own balance could take effect? While pain and war are yet more evidence of God's mercy we were never meant to hold Darkness. This weight is for God's own shoulders should you allow it. Bask in the revelation of the Light subtle. The grossness of Darkness is too loud for God's subtlety. Being is the loudest voice of all. Let go of talking about the feast and eat. Do not covet the fruits of God's table for mana anew is yours on the morrow. Can you make space for this? To compare all of life to your past's pain is to make up an idol of your pain. There is only one true God. A God above comparissons and besting. The path is in for your being proclaims God's glory just as the rocks and sky sing God. Your very throat functions in God's grand majesty... Do your words echo such? Or has your voice become dull in your own ears? Has God walked beside you for so long that you assume? Take heed that God also longs for you. That God's heart is that of your dreamed lover. Willing to endure any heart break suffered from the vastness of God's adoration for you. Will you embrace? Magic is yours for this is God's delight. Look around at the Now. Can you see?
Look around!! Its all right here... can you see it?
I'm in Sinai Egypt. Sitting on the shore Ive longed to be at for a year past. As I write this time I seek peace from my ever-willing critic and depression that would devour even this moment if granted permission. God is good. Over the past year I have done much. I started drawing here on this beach a year ago and I return with shirts bearing my artwork and requests for tattoo and logo design. All this under the over bearing weight of my critic. I am amazing. I push so hard. Peace is mine as I wish to let go of this weight. I seek God in a new and deeper way. A deeper relationship. Not seeking. The present what is. To take hold of care. No racing around sporadically. Grounded. Clever mires me. Just flow. Let go into pieces surely dissolve into peace. Its all good. Wanting to learn something new can be in flow with my soul. Not the "I" for I take shit personally. I am along for the ride. Its glorious. To struggle with darkness is to last great pain at times. So I let go of ambition. Be present and train to gain strength. See what happens. Allow for God to furnish life. This means conform to peace. Tell my big brother thanks for not letting me cop his shit. What can you take when all is already freely given? We presume God too much. This stance of knowing. Its all right here!!! Look! Can you see it? Or do you throw your trash and assault your body with the rest of us? Have we forgotten our beauty? Its all right here! Look around. It support your very looking. The only problem with God always being present is that we have become numb. Is your voice common to you that your splendor is lost?
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Its time to evolve people!!!!
If you have any idea what its like to buff your party members as your tank gets in place and the snipers take aim on your coveted experience points... If you have ever delighted in the clink of that final piece of armor in your newly completed shell of doom and magic for which the entire internet will sing your.... If you have ever played so many video games that the real world began to seem dull, then this is for you.
Right now in our present day there is a very real global conflict that is happening. Should you choose to involve yourself you will have the most incredible adventure. We are all very lucky to be alive at this time in history, yet there is a movement of growth that is being held back by us. Can we use what we have already to share ideas and free education?
This very day the following devices exist:
A lantern sized device that you place in the fire for 30 min and it becomes almost freezing cold for about 24 hrs for refrigeration anywhere in the world. Its reusable.
A light pen that makes clean water.
A free energy device. These people have found a way to make a device that "pulls energy out of the air" in layman's terms. The oil companies are freaking out. This is a very real struggle. While you do not have to care about this situation, to care is to give yourself the most intense and real adventure. It will require every bit of who you are to grow. Here's what I mean: If the question of "Ok, so what can I do though?" ever enters your mind, the answer is evolve. Grow. Learn about your body. Your brain. Your heart. See what it can do.
A laptop thats only $100. Education is available for the world. In a few decades the way of life for humanity could evolve to a way of live our ancestors dreamed of.
Ill give you a secret.
Ok, Ill give you a couple.
Be gentle with yourself. What if taking care of your body, the chalice of your soul, was how you showed your gratitude? Not how it looks but how it works. What can it do? What is around it? In it? Environment. Most people are very hard on themselves. If you treated a child the way you treat yourself... how would they turn out? Don't use that as another reason to be mean... just understand how your mind works by being gentle with it. The same with your heart. The secrets of yourself are with you always but they will only reveal themselves in the most considerate of conditions.
Imagine that every human being was a cell in the body of a giant creature. Like the flocks of birds and ants as they swarm so too humans are one flowing creature. A creature that is at war with itself. All it takes is a small shift of the mind. No giving up beliefs or recanting. Just considering that all of Nature is a giant clue as to how we can behave so that Nature herself gives up her secrets should she find us considerate enough. We as humans form a creature that dances on the horizon of the physical and ethereal. Spirit. What if spirit or energy was the deafening sound of silence? All you have to do to evolve is sit and just be. Don't "do" anything. Just be. Like a tree standing there. Practice this and soon enough you will find secrets that are like the ones in the video games except this is all life in true form.
What if God needs you as much as you need God? How else could it be? To say God is relationship is to say we are in this together. Equally benefiting. Or else how can you get a gift for someone who already has everything? In order that God is realized, we must do the realizing. Together. Realize how life flows. Not at all what they teach in schools. Question all that you have not have honestly asked yourself the answer.
The Present is the greatest adventure.
Right now in our present day there is a very real global conflict that is happening. Should you choose to involve yourself you will have the most incredible adventure. We are all very lucky to be alive at this time in history, yet there is a movement of growth that is being held back by us. Can we use what we have already to share ideas and free education?
This very day the following devices exist:
A lantern sized device that you place in the fire for 30 min and it becomes almost freezing cold for about 24 hrs for refrigeration anywhere in the world. Its reusable.
A light pen that makes clean water.
A free energy device. These people have found a way to make a device that "pulls energy out of the air" in layman's terms. The oil companies are freaking out. This is a very real struggle. While you do not have to care about this situation, to care is to give yourself the most intense and real adventure. It will require every bit of who you are to grow. Here's what I mean: If the question of "Ok, so what can I do though?" ever enters your mind, the answer is evolve. Grow. Learn about your body. Your brain. Your heart. See what it can do.
A laptop thats only $100. Education is available for the world. In a few decades the way of life for humanity could evolve to a way of live our ancestors dreamed of.
Ill give you a secret.
Ok, Ill give you a couple.
Be gentle with yourself. What if taking care of your body, the chalice of your soul, was how you showed your gratitude? Not how it looks but how it works. What can it do? What is around it? In it? Environment. Most people are very hard on themselves. If you treated a child the way you treat yourself... how would they turn out? Don't use that as another reason to be mean... just understand how your mind works by being gentle with it. The same with your heart. The secrets of yourself are with you always but they will only reveal themselves in the most considerate of conditions.
Imagine that every human being was a cell in the body of a giant creature. Like the flocks of birds and ants as they swarm so too humans are one flowing creature. A creature that is at war with itself. All it takes is a small shift of the mind. No giving up beliefs or recanting. Just considering that all of Nature is a giant clue as to how we can behave so that Nature herself gives up her secrets should she find us considerate enough. We as humans form a creature that dances on the horizon of the physical and ethereal. Spirit. What if spirit or energy was the deafening sound of silence? All you have to do to evolve is sit and just be. Don't "do" anything. Just be. Like a tree standing there. Practice this and soon enough you will find secrets that are like the ones in the video games except this is all life in true form.
What if God needs you as much as you need God? How else could it be? To say God is relationship is to say we are in this together. Equally benefiting. Or else how can you get a gift for someone who already has everything? In order that God is realized, we must do the realizing. Together. Realize how life flows. Not at all what they teach in schools. Question all that you have not have honestly asked yourself the answer.
The Present is the greatest adventure.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Different flavor of God.
Well right now Im in Oakland, CA next to a pool in some random apt complex.
Theres redwood trees nearby as well as an orange tree by this fly looking back yard...
just got a whole disertation on the apartment complex which was cool until she made it
awkward by telling me her life story about her downstairs neighbor being crazy.... it felt
like she was grabbing for some energy in her gasp to tell. I did prompt a reply but it was
grabby energetically. This makes me think of my immaturiety coming of age as i learn
how to be with people and just know how much or how little to share of myself in a way
thats considerate. but it feels like theres an actual appropriate response based on the
level of where someone is in their relationship with me. I guess i havent really known
how to relate to people often in my life. it feels like a whole skill set. my brain is always
somewhere mystical or imaginary. i feel like i have an untrained mind or that its not
being used with a real skill set. I cling to god for my purpose and for my reality. god is
my exsuse for life. god is my being god is my love. god all. what i seek to know and
yearn to touch. god. god is the the material that all this is made of. god is the guide to to
our destiny. realization. no empire can stop that. even in the worst of situation where
man has crumbled all. this make space for god anew. to rule the world is to be a big fish
in a small pool. im a fish that runs on the land. is it time for me to
move on? i yet have question in my choice. what shall i choose. i choose this now: to
enjoy my summer and have fun. to not be so hard on myself and alow for a break that
my confidence my grow. to cling to god in my heart gently. and africa.... africa i will
take on. fully. nothing to intoxicate me. I will walk with god and god alone. nothing will
touch this most sacred part of my soul. i want it pure. this game is changing. i read the
book celestine prophecy. the book was an extremely
easy read. felt like what i would write if i didnt want to jumble a message too much with
the story. the alegory rode quite boldly on the premse. anywho... i learned a lot. the
persepective is all real for me. i know this. the game has extended. i know the goal. to
become immortal. or to be the one who brings your piece of concouciness to god. or to
yourself to be realized. this true realization allows you to be able to sit and vibrate to the
level of heaven which is already here. we must dissolve into god. this is not a going
back. this is a going thru. the process is the point for that there is no substitute. Energy
can only be built by relationship and the ones that are the most ancient are massive
conduits of god for us. by being in love with god you are to be in love with matter.
everything that you are and that you experience. god makes this all. not a massisive
asshole in the sky who watches and checks your everymove. this could only come from
someone with an agenda. this is not god. god doesnt even come. god is here. it is this.
fully and totally. unbiased. fully willing to take whatever we throw at it. there are
properties to god. just as there are properties to water and when respected they allow one
to be a friend of god. gods eager will is to pour out fully and honestly an abundance for
all, for all are intended. this isnt a game of be good for god so that god will... thats
backwards. god has already so what is your condition to receive it. this only can come
from moving from a base vibration of potential to an elevated vibration of actualization.
when told that anything is possible this is true. only the heart way, the path, the honest
fullfillment of relationship with god and the truth of what that brings up in you is the
path to actualization. proper love for this form of god that is my body and my life. to be
in love with this life!!!! yes death is part of this experience but it is only to make space
for evoulution of god anew. god wants to be in communion for god can only evolve if
we evolve. god gains from this relationship, desires, wants, communes this relationship
as much as the sliver of perspective that is i else this is not a real relationship. for a real
realationship births something completely interdependant and fully dependant on the
presence of all involved. this is not just to die and let go... this is to live and be in it. the
game is a giant invitation. rest in death for ashes clean anew but do not revert to lower
vibrations. stay fast in the movment upward and into from within. when someone or as
god has done always, reveals the most vunerable soft side any mistakes can only been
seen by a judgemental mind that cannot see how beautiful the one is who is being
judged. do not wield judgement in softest temple of someones being. this is painful as all
of us well know. only by being ok with where we are all.. .not even just be ok but realize
you are never away from god for you are from god. how can you be the opposite unless
you just choose to believe it. to know that god is right here is truth. the message of god
speaking to you in everymoment. if you heard every love song as the very words for you
from god. the very presense of all that is the very offering of god to your feet as an
invitation to enter into the fullness of who you are and what is possible for you in the
relationship that is your birthright. your roots. the very holding of your being. god is so
madly in love with you. die and truly under stand all the misunderstanding is the
recesses of your heart. god longs to touch the most vulneralble and pain ful ouch effed
up mess irresponsible moments. god completely understand the remorse of moments lost
and not fully potentialed but that can only come from the actual walk. how can you
assume that all would be already if hasnt been done already in this moment. history is
patterns not duplicated or repeated.
Theres redwood trees nearby as well as an orange tree by this fly looking back yard...
just got a whole disertation on the apartment complex which was cool until she made it
awkward by telling me her life story about her downstairs neighbor being crazy.... it felt
like she was grabbing for some energy in her gasp to tell. I did prompt a reply but it was
grabby energetically. This makes me think of my immaturiety coming of age as i learn
how to be with people and just know how much or how little to share of myself in a way
thats considerate. but it feels like theres an actual appropriate response based on the
level of where someone is in their relationship with me. I guess i havent really known
how to relate to people often in my life. it feels like a whole skill set. my brain is always
somewhere mystical or imaginary. i feel like i have an untrained mind or that its not
being used with a real skill set. I cling to god for my purpose and for my reality. god is
my exsuse for life. god is my being god is my love. god all. what i seek to know and
yearn to touch. god. god is the the material that all this is made of. god is the guide to to
our destiny. realization. no empire can stop that. even in the worst of situation where
man has crumbled all. this make space for god anew. to rule the world is to be a big fish
in a small pool. im a fish that runs on the land. is it time for me to
move on? i yet have question in my choice. what shall i choose. i choose this now: to
enjoy my summer and have fun. to not be so hard on myself and alow for a break that
my confidence my grow. to cling to god in my heart gently. and africa.... africa i will
take on. fully. nothing to intoxicate me. I will walk with god and god alone. nothing will
touch this most sacred part of my soul. i want it pure. this game is changing. i read the
book celestine prophecy. the book was an extremely
easy read. felt like what i would write if i didnt want to jumble a message too much with
the story. the alegory rode quite boldly on the premse. anywho... i learned a lot. the
persepective is all real for me. i know this. the game has extended. i know the goal. to
become immortal. or to be the one who brings your piece of concouciness to god. or to
yourself to be realized. this true realization allows you to be able to sit and vibrate to the
level of heaven which is already here. we must dissolve into god. this is not a going
back. this is a going thru. the process is the point for that there is no substitute. Energy
can only be built by relationship and the ones that are the most ancient are massive
conduits of god for us. by being in love with god you are to be in love with matter.
everything that you are and that you experience. god makes this all. not a massisive
asshole in the sky who watches and checks your everymove. this could only come from
someone with an agenda. this is not god. god doesnt even come. god is here. it is this.
fully and totally. unbiased. fully willing to take whatever we throw at it. there are
properties to god. just as there are properties to water and when respected they allow one
to be a friend of god. gods eager will is to pour out fully and honestly an abundance for
all, for all are intended. this isnt a game of be good for god so that god will... thats
backwards. god has already so what is your condition to receive it. this only can come
from moving from a base vibration of potential to an elevated vibration of actualization.
when told that anything is possible this is true. only the heart way, the path, the honest
fullfillment of relationship with god and the truth of what that brings up in you is the
path to actualization. proper love for this form of god that is my body and my life. to be
in love with this life!!!! yes death is part of this experience but it is only to make space
for evoulution of god anew. god wants to be in communion for god can only evolve if
we evolve. god gains from this relationship, desires, wants, communes this relationship
as much as the sliver of perspective that is i else this is not a real relationship. for a real
realationship births something completely interdependant and fully dependant on the
presence of all involved. this is not just to die and let go... this is to live and be in it. the
game is a giant invitation. rest in death for ashes clean anew but do not revert to lower
vibrations. stay fast in the movment upward and into from within. when someone or as
god has done always, reveals the most vunerable soft side any mistakes can only been
seen by a judgemental mind that cannot see how beautiful the one is who is being
judged. do not wield judgement in softest temple of someones being. this is painful as all
of us well know. only by being ok with where we are all.. .not even just be ok but realize
you are never away from god for you are from god. how can you be the opposite unless
you just choose to believe it. to know that god is right here is truth. the message of god
speaking to you in everymoment. if you heard every love song as the very words for you
from god. the very presense of all that is the very offering of god to your feet as an
invitation to enter into the fullness of who you are and what is possible for you in the
relationship that is your birthright. your roots. the very holding of your being. god is so
madly in love with you. die and truly under stand all the misunderstanding is the
recesses of your heart. god longs to touch the most vulneralble and pain ful ouch effed
up mess irresponsible moments. god completely understand the remorse of moments lost
and not fully potentialed but that can only come from the actual walk. how can you
assume that all would be already if hasnt been done already in this moment. history is
patterns not duplicated or repeated.
Monday, July 28, 2008
Friday, July 25, 2008
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Weird how the corpse pose in yoga is for regeneration.
This is the beginning of my new blog that I will be using as I travel through Africa this next year. I recently found out that you can drop a bill at the nppa.org website and score a press pass. Thats right, I am now with the press. It's cool. It's really no big deal. Whatever. It's weird, I don't even try.
Anyways, my plan is to leave for Africa and walk around for a year. My general idea is to avoid planes while making my way around the coast. I'll be starting in Sinai, Egypt and heading into Sudan. I hear there are fields of pyramids in Sudan with no people in sight. Giza is for suckers. Despite the bad press on a bad situation in Darfur, what most may not know is that Sudan is considered to have the most hospitible people. They are extremely kind. After Sudan I am off to Ethiopia. Where it all began.
A few months ago National Geographic featured an Egyptian Pharoah on the cover. What made this issue different than countless others was the admission of a black Pharoah. A remarkable piece of Africa history for sure. It gets better. Egypt was actually a colony of Ethiopia. Sudan was as well. The mighty Egypt is where the Greeks and Romans learned of religion, theology, and culture. Even the empire that is the U.S. is of that linage. I wanna go and see the beginning. Where it all could have started.
As I travel, I will be putting up pictures and blogging about the trip. Technology permitting, video as well. Come on the journey with me as I jump into one of the biggest things I've ever done. Africa for a year.
This summer I will be blogging about preparing for the trip and some of the things I'm wanting to happen. Stay tuned for mischief for sure.
-Justin
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